Have you ever tried bargaining with God? Lord, I will give you everything ... except this one thing because I deserve it … or I just can’t live without it…or whatever bargaining chip you have. How long did that last? How many times would I bang my head against the wall saying, Yes, Lord, I will give you everything except … ? God does not bargain, and He does not play games with a soul.

In this gripping story of a consuming addiction, Ched Salasek reveals not only his own struggle but the deep root of so much human pain—the struggle to surrender.

As he delves into the highs and lows of his own journey, readers are reminded:

• To see the cross as a gift, not as a curse to be avoided at all costs
• That the enemy plans to destroy marriage and family through the vicious cycle of escape, addiction, and shame
• God has given us the means to conquer—through the grace of total surrender